Spiritual Awakening: Disappointment Turns To Enlightenment!!!

As the regular readers of this blog know I am very dedicated to helping those touched by cancer through my involvement with Relay For Life. Over the years I have emceed many Relays. This year as The American Cancer Society Relay For Life of Boca Raton approached I reached out to The People Lead about being the emcee and was told they had that covered. The day of The Relay arrived and I went to Relay and when asked about doing  announcements was told only the staff partner and The People Lead would be making announcements. I was a bit surprised as well as disappointed as I have been the voice of this Relay for the previous 12 years. I understand that people want to change it up and you want to give  other people a chance, however when you have one of the best at their craft who is passionate about the cause and has raised the kind of money I have raised you find a way to include me. I was very angry and I expressed this to the people lead who was so caught up in her title and having power she didn’t even engage with me. Her answer was people don’t want all that talking they just want to enjoy the event.  After my initial anger and disappointment subsided I had the opportunity to sit quietly and reflect and then I realized that not everyone will appreciate your talents and there will be those that are intimidated because while many talk I do.  I then thought that it doesn’t matter if I emcee or not that I am there to honor my mom, Judith Miller, who was called home to GOD on July 5, 2012 after suffering a massive heart attack while battling non-operable metastatic lung cancer and even though I know I could have  engaged the audience and brought excitement to the event emceeing or even making announcements was not what GOD had in mind for me to do that night.

As I walked the Luminaria lap I had an aha moment which put things into perspective. I received a message from source, I believe it was from my mother telling me that sometimes working quietly behind the scenes serves the great purpose. I am working on releasing my disappointment of not being the emcee as well as not being asked to be part of the committee. This could also be a Message from GOD that he has something much bigger in store for me. The enlightening moment occurred earlier today when I realized that at the end of the day all that matters is  that I was impeccable with my word, didn’t take anything personally, didn’t judge, and always did my best. I also realized that as long as I go where I am honored and respected and not just tolerated that everything will be okay.  I also have come to understand that not everyone will understand my level of commitment and my ways of doing anything. I also learned that instead of dwelling on the disappointment look at the good that came from me not being the emcee like being able to do an oracle card reading and put someone at ease and collect $20 for the cause for doing this, to be able to man a booth and receive donations for The SUJA Juice I had donated, and to have the ability to see Relay For Life from a different perspective.