Spiritual Awakening: Disappointment Turns To Enlightenment!!!

As the regular readers of this blog know I am very dedicated to helping those touched by cancer through my involvement with Relay For Life. Over the years I have emceed many Relays. This year as The American Cancer Society Relay For Life of Boca Raton approached I reached out to The People Lead about being the emcee and was told they had that covered. The day of The Relay arrived and I went to Relay and when asked about doing  announcements was told only the staff partner and The People Lead would be making announcements. I was a bit surprised as well as disappointed as I have been the voice of this Relay for the previous 12 years. I understand that people want to change it up and you want to give  other people a chance, however when you have one of the best at their craft who is passionate about the cause and has raised the kind of money I have raised you find a way to include me. I was very angry and I expressed this to the people lead who was so caught up in her title and having power she didn’t even engage with me. Her answer was people don’t want all that talking they just want to enjoy the event.  After my initial anger and disappointment subsided I had the opportunity to sit quietly and reflect and then I realized that not everyone will appreciate your talents and there will be those that are intimidated because while many talk I do.  I then thought that it doesn’t matter if I emcee or not that I am there to honor my mom, Judith Miller, who was called home to GOD on July 5, 2012 after suffering a massive heart attack while battling non-operable metastatic lung cancer and even though I know I could have  engaged the audience and brought excitement to the event emceeing or even making announcements was not what GOD had in mind for me to do that night.

As I walked the Luminaria lap I had an aha moment which put things into perspective. I received a message from source, I believe it was from my mother telling me that sometimes working quietly behind the scenes serves the great purpose. I am working on releasing my disappointment of not being the emcee as well as not being asked to be part of the committee. This could also be a Message from GOD that he has something much bigger in store for me. The enlightening moment occurred earlier today when I realized that at the end of the day all that matters is  that I was impeccable with my word, didn’t take anything personally, didn’t judge, and always did my best. I also realized that as long as I go where I am honored and respected and not just tolerated that everything will be okay.  I also have come to understand that not everyone will understand my level of commitment and my ways of doing anything. I also learned that instead of dwelling on the disappointment look at the good that came from me not being the emcee like being able to do an oracle card reading and put someone at ease and collect $20 for the cause for doing this, to be able to man a booth and receive donations for The SUJA Juice I had donated, and to have the ability to see Relay For Life from a different perspective.

There are many lessons that I have learned from not emceeing The American Cancer Society Relay For Life and I have come to accept that I will not resonate with everyone and that is okay for when I lay my head to rest knowing I was of value and service to others that is what is important.

I learned that it is not our plan that is important it is GOD’S plan that matter for GOD is the all knowing power who wants us to prosper.

I have learned to detach from this situations and to let go and simply be my authentic self walking in my truth. In not getting attached to being the emcee or being on the committee I am able to do what I do and thus achieve the main goal, which is to help raise funds for research, education, advocacy, and services.

I further learned that my purpose was not to emcee that night but to shine my light and illuminate the world as there was a bigger task that GOD had for me that night. In not emceeing I was able to fundraise and engage the facilities manager and as a result the school may host a Relay Recess Event.

As I sat in meditation today (4/18/2016) I found my disappointment turning into enlightenment and letting go of any bad feelings. I know the quicker that I can release the negative emotions the more positive things I will attract into my life.

 I am relieved  now that I many not be The Relay Emcee or on the committee as I can be a team captain, raise funds, and truly experience with Relay with joy and gratitude. I can take great solace  knowing that I can be of service and value in other ways. Namaste!!!